Posted by orchid on November 9, 2005, at 21:47:01
I have been living in my parents house for the past 1 week.
And it is so clear to me now that I was abused very much by my dad. Perhaps unintentionally, but still the effect is the same. All my issues and problems with my T everything is clearly rooted here.
Even now, my father keeps wanting to touch me all the time. I don't like it and I try to politely pull away. He never understands. Today I was sleeping in a bed, and he came and tried to sleep on top of me. And I pulled away. This, after telling him to not touch me before on the phone. He does it unintentionally, and still thinks of me as a small child and perhaps like a teddy bear.
But imagine the confusion it would have caused on a growing girl if this went on day after day for years.
I feel pretty sorry for myself today. Any hugs for me? I wish my dad had more sense. He still doesn't understand. He keeps wanting to touch me all the time in some way or the other, sometimes holding hands, sometimes more closer etc. And I don't want to hurt him, but this is clearly the issue for me. This always have been the main issue.
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