Posted by Jen Star on November 10, 2005, at 18:23:02
In reply to I was clearly abused, posted by orchid on November 9, 2005, at 21:47:01
Orchid,
it seems to me that you're going down a bad path of despair. At least in the USA, you had culture and law on your side, even if you chose not to exercise the right to use them.In India, culturally, men usually have dominance over women. You seem to be falling into a trap where you are losing your self-esteem and sense of self-worth, and just doing what the men in your life want you to do. And what THEY want you to do seems to be getting further and further from what YOU want for yourself. It seems that your depression and suicidal feelings are related to this move back to India, back to dependence, away from independence, away from your individual identity.
I worry about you without a job, without close friends, with family that 1)are abusive (dad) and 2)look the other way (mother.)
I sooo wish you could stand up for yourself. Why don't you? I'm not asking that out of a desire to be b**chy or snide. I'm really curious and worried. Why DON'T you stand up and tell them to stop it? Why DON'T you leave? Why DON'T you come back to the US, alone? (or go to a different part of the world, or India, alone?)
I wish I could help. I hope this post doesn't make you mad or upset or sad. I'm just worried, and I want to be honest with my feelings.
take care, and please keep posting!
jenStar
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