Posted by Damos on November 30, 2005, at 21:53:47
In reply to Re:, posted by alexandra_k on November 30, 2005, at 3:25:56
Tears
Hurts
But good ones
Ones that let me know that I can and do care
That I can and do love
Things that let me know that this person has tremendous meaning to me
Deeply effecting meaningKnow that I read and I feel - deeply, and that I'm sorry that I am here so little and so late. So much of what you have written strikes so very close to home, I just don't have the words to respond adequately. And Cricket , Z and CS have already said so much of what I was thinking and feeling, just so much better than I could have anyway. So often you write the things I am afraid to admit to myself - thank you.
But I do remember when I first saw the book "Stranger in a Strange Land" I bought it cause I hoped it would help me answer why I felt like that.
My word is nice. My response to people saying I am that is so similar to what you describe. It's an actual physical response that makes me want to claw my skin off. Wish I knew how to make it stop without hurting anyone too. I'll try not to use the 'S' word in future.
"and so it doesn't matter" - It does, more than you know.
"and I guess I'm human after all." - Yes, wondrously so.
"I guess these things aren't important to me." - And that's perfectly okay, each to their own. The things that ARE important to you ARE important in all kinds of ways.
Alex, you are already all you will ever need to be. And that is someone very special indeed.
(((((Alex)))))
poster:Damos
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