Posted by alexandra_k on January 27, 2006, at 5:13:43
In reply to Re: Social Anxiety » alexandra_k, posted by LegWarmers on January 26, 2006, at 20:36:29
> Yeah, I do tht with people sometimes. Its hard to keep up.
Yeah, it is. I need to make new friends over there. Start a new life. I really don't think... I'll be coming back here. Even if I do come back to the country I really don't think... I'll be coming back to this region.
> oh no! That would be awful, I didn't know anxiety could make you pass out.Neither did I... I never thought of it as anxiety / a panic attack, but I guess that was what it is. It makes sense now. To start with... I used to feel really really really really hot like I was overheating and going to explode. I used to lie down on a cold tile floor (in the bathroom) and sometimes I even had to strip to cool down... Just lie there for a while. Then it used to happen in public a bit. I'd feel like I really really really needed to sit down pronto. And I'd have to sit down with my head between my legs, or lie on the ground and breathe... For a while until the feeling passed. Then... If I fight the feeling and try and just ignore it... It is like my visual field starts to go all black. It starts at the outside edges and moves in until everything goes black. If I haven't managed to sit / lie down before everything goes black then I pass out. It used to happen... Maybe 4 or 6 times a year. I haven't had that for a couple years now. Except... If I've had really rather a lot of dope or LSD or something like that. I don't seem to get them anymore though. :-) So maybe... I'm getting a little better with that. I guess I'm just noticing... How much I avoid people. Feel awkward and decide it isn't worth it and just shut myself in my room I guess.
> I don't think it would have been too much for you, but it might have been very overwhelming!Yeah. I think I would need a calculator to work out tips lol. I think... It would have been 10 times harder than this is... Maybe even more so...
> It will be nice having that history in Oz, Im sure they will be very welcoming as well.
Yeah. They have been with communication thus far. And the biggest point in their favour is that they met me once for a couple months and they saw me wobble a little... But they seem keen to have me back
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:-)> Im sure you are great in interviews, Maybe you could tell people that you are a quiet person and look for flats that have people who are also looking for other quiet people.
Yeah. What I've noticed online... Is that people typically ask for 'friendly' so it might be about pretending... And hoping I can live up to that.
> Do they have online ads? I'd check for that.
Yep. Have been to try and figure prices and areas etc. They seem to want to meet you in person...
>"Inflict your self" :( DO NOT THINK LIKE THAT!!! :) ok?
Yeah. Thats probably not so helpful... But that really is... How I think of myself in a living environment. If I could afford to live by myself I would. But I can't. I used to live by myself. But then... I had a lot more episodes and a lot more depression in general. I didn't know what it was... But now I'm thinking it may have been... Lonliness.
> Yeah, good idea! no yoga or anything like that?
Maybe if I joined the gym, but that's not going to happen lol.
> Its hard, for me it depeneds on the situation. But I imagine if I am very anxious, I show it. Would taking a benzo help any with that?
I went to the doctor today. Because I got to thinking... That maybe that is what my 'episodes' are about. Anxiety. I got a benzo to take when I'm in one of those places. Hopefully to help me sleep / relax a little. Hopefully to help me climb out of it faster. But I'm only going to take it at those times. And for 7 days max. Otherwise... Tolerance addiction and withdrawal. I don't want to replace my current drugs with that...
> How frustrating to not have a place to go :( that would really make me anxious too. Hhopefully you will get lucky, an dfind something soon.
Yeah. I think it is going to be a matter of... Just going. Taking a week to look. Thats all I can afford... I'm going to have to start work after one week. Even taking a week is going to be hard... But I think I'll need that and I really don't want to be trying to work while staying at a backpackers :-( Worst case... I guess I'll be sleeping in the office lol.
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