Posted by shrinking violet on April 30, 2005, at 11:32:36
In reply to Re: .....never known pain like this......(trigger?) » shrinking violet, posted by daisym on April 29, 2005, at 23:45:53
> I'm so sorry that you are suffering. It breaks my heart. I wish there was something someone could do. Please go to your last session, even if you know you will cry the whole time. It is OK to let it out.
--I know,I will. I've been crying with her, it just doesn't seem to make things any better. And how amI supposed to leave (and live) afterwards? I don't know.....
> This is one of those situations that is impossibly unfair and at this moment you just can't see how any good could come out of it. Everything looks dark and bleak. But...if you hold on, if you get through the next days, weeks and months, I bet you will find that the work you've done together has cemented a foundation for further growth. I bet you will hear her words in your head when situations arise that make you think of her. I bet you will find that this anguish gives way to tender grief.--I'm sorry,I don't mean to be difficult here, and I know your trying to help, but......I don't believe any of that. Maybe some people "fall" for that kind of thing, and maybe for them things do get better because they have other things around them to sustain them through the pain. I don't have any of that. There's just....nothing. It feels like I'm being led deep into a thick dak jungle, and then left there, with no food or survival instincts or matches, nothing. I can't even explain it better than that, and that doesn't even suffice.
> You will always miss her. You will. All of this is totally unfair. But I don't think she would want you to do anything drastic. That isn't the way to honor the work you've done together.--It won't matter. It's easy for her anyway. I wish I knew what her magic was.....
> I hope you find some peace this weekend. I'll be around. Post as much as you need to.
>
> Hugs from me.
> Daisy--Thank you. I plan to drug myself into a stupor all weekend, and try to sleep most of the time. To hell with school right now, I don't care. Thanks again.
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