Posted by kerria on October 17, 2006, at 0:34:25
tears, please help- i'm so upset inside and everything is a mess inside . Today my T called back to schedule appt- a different day every week because of his schedule and he blamed me because i share a car with my h. He swore- and yelled. i'm so so hurt. All my support is gone. tears, i can't make it.
How can he be so cruel- i'm so afraid to ever see him again.
Why is he so angry that he would yell at me.? What does it matter- he'd give me a day when he wanted to anyways. Why? What is there about me that he would yell at me when i can't help it that i have an angry h who won't allow me to use the caaar twice a week- and those two days are easier days to schedule for him. tears. i'm devastated . i know he doesn't care about me. tearsi feel like the last six years of t with him are a waste- i'm so apart- so hurt. He's the only one who knows my parts. i wasn't blaming him that he couldn't see me until Friday- why did he yell at me and swear ? What is it about me that people treat me like that.
My h is angry that he gives me the car- why? i feel so abandoned. tears. My T showed his real feelings- he doesn't care about me- tears. How can i go on? He knows how much it upset me- why would he ddo that to me? Why couldn't he talk softly because i'm having such a hard time?How do you all find Ts who care about you?
i don't know what to do - i can't believe it. i heard him and i know he doesn't care about me. He cares about his schedule andd i'm too much trouble to be worth it. tears.please help someone. all my support is gone. it's too hard for me. There are too many hard things. My h is so hateful towrds me and i have this horrible triggering pain - i have to have surgery for but need to delay because i don't have the emotional support to have it, tears. there's too many hard things.Today is the anniverasary of f's death- i told T why i was upset- i didn't blame T that he had no time- why did he yell at me and blame me for what i can't help/ tears,
kerria
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