Posted by kerria on October 17, 2006, at 15:41:37
In reply to Re: my T yelled and swore at me . tears, posted by ElaineM on October 17, 2006, at 13:02:18
His schedule switches because he works in a hospital- he has patients on the side at the hospital but that isn't priority as far as scheduling . Mostly he has openings the days when i can't come because i don't have use of a car- it's too scary- i get lost on the bus so that's no longer an option.
T swore bc he was angry- blamed h for the schedule conflict. He was so angry with me. i'm doing so badly. i asked about someone who could see me before Friday- i can't wait 2 weeks between appt-
i know he doesn't care about me- it was so clear to me. it's so hard to find another T now- with the surgery coming up, only T knows how to talk to my parts. i wish that i started with a T who cared about me. He doesn't care about the effect he has on me. tears,
i feel so damaged. so afraid about the future. tears. i don't know my parts and i can't function.
T used to like me- he used to care but he stopped - he's been treating patients with DID- hates it now maybe i don't know. i know he doesn't care about me or what happens to me. It hurts a lot.
He cares first about his time and money. That's what he talked about and my h who is also so hard to deal with - blamed him and yelled '
T resents the schedule conflict with me so much that he forgot that i'm having a very hard time. he doesn't care. i could change the schedule if i knew how much T hated it but it wouldn't matter because T doesn't care about me- it was so apparant. i'm a mess inside and i need help now. i can't go to ER no one knows how to help me. i need to find a T - it's too hard now. i don't know what to do.
tears,
kerria
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