Posted by Lindenblüte on October 17, 2006, at 20:10:43
In reply to Re: my T yelled and swore at me . tears, posted by kerria on October 17, 2006, at 15:41:37
Hi Kerria,
You know, my first T had a pretty intense personality. I heard him say some really choice phrases to describe certain political personalities, and there were a few times when he kind of went off the deep end, and showed his frustration at how my parents treated me, or how the mental healthcare system makes his job too difficult.I'm going to go out on a limb and suggest that his cursing was a curse directed towards the "situation" . He's frustrated that he can't be there for you, especially when he needs to see you, and when you need to see him. He's frustrated because his client doesn't have the full partnership she deserves in her marriage. He's just frustrated.
It came out as curses. Since he was on the phone with you, it came out as curses towards YOU. Since he's trying "his best" to find a time, he wishes that your schedule were wide open, because he WANTs to help you.
That's my interpretation of his behavior. I think he does care, and he does hear the pain in your voice, and that's why he's especially anxious to be there for you. Well, some people's anxiety/guilt/frustration comes out in misdirected curses.
I'm so sorry that you had to be on the other end of THAT phone conversation. He should have had his hospital supervisor schedule daemon on the other end of the phone. He should have been cursing at the SYSTEM, saying "I *need* to see Kerrria, ASAP. She's an important client. She's going through a rough time, and I've been there for her for SIX YEARS. This is b*llshit."
Kerria, you do count. I'm so sorry you're in such pain. It's just not fair. (((((gentle hugs)))))
I hope you can get some rest this evening. You deserve some comfort.
-Li
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