Posted by kerria on October 22, 2006, at 9:33:47
In reply to Re: Now T emailed with his address. tears » kerria, posted by Dinah on October 20, 2006, at 9:50:37
Thank you Dinah. It makes a lot of sense - what you said. i do need T too much to leave now but should try to look for a T that we could take.
Someone that wouldn't hurt me so much as this T does.In practical real world now- it's hard to put your advice into action though. My parts are afraid to see T and i'm not able to communicate with them. It might not be possible, - It's so hard to do things against what i feel inside thaat parts don't want to allow. i might end up not getting to the appt or a huge upset will happen or a terrible migraine so i can't go. There needs to be more agreement or i can't make the appt.
It T would call back and talk to me- and not do these weird things - like email his work address and work email when i've been using his home email like he said to for the past six years.
T is making it impossible for me to see him by doing thiss- i think that he knows me well enough and he's still doing it anyways. i wonder why. Why doesn't he care about me and it hurts ssso much.
i'm so afraid that i'm going to 'lose it' when i go to the surgeon 's soon. i don't have the support for this triggering surgery- inside feels - and has an average age of seven and feels there is no adult to take care of uss. i can't even communicate to parts. h won't even be here- out of state now. So much is so hard now. my pain meds aren't working an parts feel like they were just p.a and s.a. now. It's so hard to live- i need a T because i'm losing it and i wissh T would opeen cccommunication. Why won't he?
Thank you for your advice- if i wasn't such a mess inside it would be the best thing to do and i'd be able to. we're so much a mess now.
kerria
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