Posted by kerria on October 28, 2006, at 16:13:20
In reply to Re: Now T emailed with his address. tears » kerria, posted by sunnydays on October 28, 2006, at 9:57:29
> kerria, I'm so so sorry things are so hard for you right now. But hang in there, please. You called him on a Friday - give him at least until the end of the day Tuesday to call you back in case he took a long weekend for some reason. And hang in there. I know life seems hard, but it won't always be quite this hard. Keep trying.
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> ((((((kerria))))))
> Life isn't hard- it's impossible.It doesn't seem hard- i can't get out of the house - i cry on the couch in physical and emotional pain.
Inside is so upset- there's so much physical pain that's triggering me and knowing that mt T said those things to me and doesn't care about what i said on the messages yesterday hurts so much.
Everything is at a standstill- i can't make the decision about the surgery - i can't even go out of the house . i can't live with myself.
i don't think that i can ever find a T who can help me. my h doesn't love me - wants a divorce. we've been with this T since dx with DID almost six years and nine months and parts are devastated with losing him, that he doesn't care.
hearing from him on Tuesday won't matter. If he's still so angry and yells at me- says more hurtful things it will make things worse. The fact that he didn't respond to my calls - telling him how messed up i am now because of his rage a week ago is not a good sign.
what if it was YOUR T that sweared and yelled at you because of you being a scheduling problem.
i don't fit in with my T. He triggered me into this hell i can't get out of.
kerria
> sunnydays
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