Posted by KindGirl on February 27, 2004, at 19:18:18
In reply to Reason and additional question, posted by Elle2021 on February 27, 2004, at 18:00:35
Sick because I lie so easily...sad because I can't stop.
I pick at my fingers...esp my thumbs. They look horrid when I do it...like someone poured acid on me...just gross....well one time a friend "caught" it...noticed it and commented on it and lied. I can't believe how It can come up with lies...a million of them "I cut myself chopping vegetables" (when I hide w/bandaids)..."I burned my thumb on the curling iron"...but this takes the cake......
I made up some b.s. story about my breast pump causing my thumbs to blister constantly because this one friend wouldn't leave it alone. When she had a baby a few years later she said, "I don't want to use the breast pump you used because it blistered you." Is that sad or what?About being caught....since I pick when I am dissociating which is usually in the car or while I am watching tv, my husband will say "stop picking!!" or "quit chewing!"...and I will stop while he is looking but as soon as he turns his head I am picking away or I do it under the table.
Okay now I feel like crud for sharing all of this but it is the truth and I am being honest and open with you guys. My nails broke off (I needed a fill and just bit off all the nails yesterday) and I am already picking and biting and I am thoroughly disgusted with myself. Even typing is hard because one of my fingers is thrashed.
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