Posted by pinkeye on July 18, 2005, at 14:38:46 [reposted on July 22, 2005, at 0:51:25 | original URL]
In reply to Re: My husband keeps losing control :-( » pinkeye, posted by crazy teresa on July 18, 2005, at 10:56:24
Thanks a lot everyone..
I am sorry to sound so stupid, but really, I don't have courage to do anything now about it.. I don't want to tell my parents, I don't want to call a hotline or report, and I don't want to even think of a divorce. I just can't stay alone.. and I will suffer more if I stay alone. I have been alone before and it was hell. I can't go back to that. And I can't go back to my parents, because what would happen is I would end up serving as a companion again for my dad, and it would end up to more complications and problems for me. And I just don't have the courage to even think of being able to live alone by myself or to find someone again. It just seems impossible to me.
My T knows about this. and she gives me the same feedbacks that you give. BUt I have only 2 more sessions with her and I don't know what good it will do to bring it up again. And I cannot stop going back to India - I have already commited, and it would end up in a big problem if I want to stay here.. And I might have more support in India because my family is there and I might end up feeling courageous.
My husband is a nice guy basically, and I think with time and effort he will realize it.. even today, he was crying in my lap, and I had to console him. I have been trying to put more sense into him for a few years now in different ways, and he is picking up. He is basically a smart and good guy, so there is plenty of hope for me to correct him in the future.. I just need patience.
You guys have been very supportive to me.. Thanks so much.
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