Posted by kerria on July 14, 2005, at 0:41:42
Does anyone have parts come out all during therapy- what is it like for you?
Yesterday was so upsetting. i was able to be there and notice when parts were out and even repond to defend another part. It's so weird, i feel so upset and T didn't help get back together
Last week T said that the stuffed animals were real- that they cared about me. i felt like in a way it was supportive to hold them when i'm little during therapy- that somehow the stuffed dog could be a real comfort when things are so hard.
Talking about what's going on now is way too hard for me. There's so much wrong everywhere- the illness with severe constant pain, the nerve block coming up that's hard to do, worrying about the source of pain, T talking about past/body memories, difficult because i notice the separations between the work part and the church part- at church on Sunday the girl that works at the same place talked to me---- so many hard things are happening to me.Then i was little and remember picking up the stuffed dog and my little six year old part was holding him and felt better. T said "T___(dog's name) can help a little but he can't really do anything to comfort you or help what's wrong IRL" T said something like that and then a part came and was angry with T and said, "Can't you let her have a few minutes of peace? Why do you have to tell her that he can't REALLY help you?!" The voice was mad at T , defending 6-yr-old C.A.
i never remember ever having two parts there at once and defending another part like that before,
i think we're getting worse- more separate. It wasn't me that was the part that defended so it was three parts there at the same time.i'm so worried, we're in so much trouble.
please, any one else been there, can identify?
Thanks for reading,
kerria
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