Posted by cricket on July 19, 2005, at 10:37:30
In reply to Re: Parts coming out in therapy, posted by kerria on July 19, 2005, at 9:57:45
> Last night i emailed and asked T if the appt that i cancelled today was still open and he said it was. i'm going to try to go but i don't have agreement inside. It's a problem when i do things like this because something will probably go wrong or else i'll end up with a big headache.
> It would be so good to throw myself into something totally and not have the pain of trying to do things against parts all the time.
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I'm glad you still have an appointment. I think you should try and go. As someone once said to me here, when a relationship with a T is at such a low point it can be liberating just to see them because you know it can't get any worse. Are there any parts that want to see the T? I have a couple of mine that do. And you're right, it is an incredible conflict. In fact, I cancelled so many times in my head this week that I think perhaps one of my parts really did call and cancel my appointment. I go this afternoon so I guess I will find out.> i went to drs today and she gave me cymbalta - maybe could help with pain also. Usually i can't take antidepressants because they affect each part in a different way and it's so destabilizing. As i cycle though parts coming out all day, each are affected a different way. So for a couple of hours i'll be falling asleep, then feel like i have so much energy and can't sit still Or else they give me migraines. i'll try it- anything that can help with the pain would be good.
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> Cricket, do you take any meds? i know that nothing helps DID very much. i have the best psyDr - i'm sorry that he doesn't have time to take me for therapy. i've tried some things like Klonopin- it took away the switching that i need to do. i went to work and the work part didn't come. it was so weird, i had to tell my boss i was sick because i didn't know where anything was and kept making mistakes.
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No, no meds at all. I am afraid of them for just the reason that you describe - what might work for some parts would be disastrous for others. I go to a Pdoc for therapy and although he's mentioned them as a possibility a couple of times, he's never pushed them.> i take diazapam sometimes- not everyday. H holds it and i take it when i see T or get too nervous.
> Nothing really helps the internal disagreement.
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> i wish that we both could have more understanding Ts. The last thing we need is to have to fight and disagree with one more person.
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> Take care. i hope that t goes well for you,
> kerria
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I see my T this afternoon and my stomach is already up in knots. Parts are fighting about who's going to talk, which usually means I say nothing, which makes T angry. I think he thinks that I am just rubbing in his face that he can't help me, which yes I do have a part that's doing that, but there are other parts just tugging at him saying, "Please, please, help me."
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