Posted by fluffy on November 10, 2002, at 11:47:23
Hi all...
(esp. Krysti and polarbear...you have helped me to understand what was going on w/ me)I just got diagnosed BP2...Half of me felt relieved--like, Yeah! That makes sense!! Finally a diagnosis that makes sense!! When I went off of the AD's, I felt pleasant, even elated, and my appetite came back.
Now I suppose that I'm doubting my diagnosis--thinking, "I'm not really bi-polar...just anxiety ridden....I just need to relax". (which never really worked anyway. I just felt guilty for not feeling well, and wondered why I couldn't relax)
I just started 100 mg neurontin a few days ago with 25 mg of zoloft at night. I'm supposed to "ramp up" on the neurontin over time. I'm feeling so doubtful and worried that this isn't real...that I made this all up just to explain my anxiety. Does this make sense to anyone? I feel like I don't even trust myself right now. And I wonder if I will ever be able to "deal" with this and feel like I can just move on with my life. I am so full of worries!
Any veterans out there? How did you move on without over-analyzing yourself? Or is that part of it? I need some reassurance.
de-fluffed and kinda sad,
Katy
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