Posted by Krysti on December 6, 2002, at 21:04:06
In reply to Re: Is there ever a normal after a BP diagnosis?, posted by Sebastian on December 6, 2002, at 20:23:03
Hi Sebastian,
I know exactly how you feel. You sound like how I was for the last 6 years. I thought if I just did this, if I just did that, I could make the anxiety go away. I was super hyper-aware of myself. It actually helped me in a lot of ways though to become a better person. I developed a big complex - anything I did or said that I felt wasn't the right thing would bring on the anxiety. It made me strive more to be the person that I want to be, so it hasn't been all bad. This may sound corny, but sometimes, I even wonder if this has all happened for that purpose. It's definitely been a hard road, but I guess it's the hard stuff we go through in life that are the learning experiences and make us better people.
How are the AD's doing for your anxiety? I'm not sure which is worse, anxiety or depression, but I wouldn't settle for either. Since I've gone on Trileptal (which is the 3rd mood stabilizer I've been on), I have been feeling so much more stable. It's only been 3 weeks so far, but if it doesn't last, I will be trying something else. My goal now is to remain stable and from all that I've read, it is attainable. I won't give up and I hope you don't either : )
Krysti
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