Posted by fluffy on November 20, 2002, at 13:04:16
In reply to Re: Is there ever a normal after a BP diagnosis? » fluffy, posted by Mr Cushing on November 18, 2002, at 18:39:22
I'm not through talkin' yet...
(Maybe this thread should go to the social section...oh who cares!...)Krysti--I totally know what you mean about wishing that other people could experience what 'we' have so that they could understand what it feels like. I was dating this guy when I was hypo-manic, and we were hitting it off great---talking on the phone all night, e-mailing all day--and then BOOM! I started having anxiety attacks, and they wouldn't stop. I would go into my studio and chain-smoke and obsess...the same thoughts over and over...and I would try to fight them, but it got worse!! Calling people crying...SO self-conscious! I tried to tell this guy what was going on, but he didn't understand at all. He would say things like, "I think that medication takes away the best parts of peoples' personalities". THAT was enough to make me SUPER anxious and self-conscious...
Then I started the AD's...what a nightmare!!! I thought about hurting myself EVERY DAY...then I would cry and feel guilty for having thoughts like that....Anyway--I have this nasty thought about casting the same spell on this guy that I was dating so that he could understand...It made me so upset!! But I broke it off with him (how else could it really end anyway...it got so jumbled and F***ed up.)
Just wanted to rant.
Best of luck with the new meds.
Katy
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