Posted by susan47 on July 18, 2008, at 20:27:23
In reply to Susan47, posted by Damos on July 3, 2008, at 18:27:37
You said this,
"Time is a funny thing Susan, there's Kronos - chronological time and then there's Kairos - the right or special moment. You've experienced Kairos if you've ever had the sense of time having 'flown' - you know that feeling when you're really 'in' a conversation or something and you feel like it's only been a couple of minutes but when you look at the clock a couple of hours have slipped by. Or when you've experienced the opposite - that sensation of time slowing down and everything happening in slow-motion. The bad news, and it took me a long time to realise this, is that you can't *make* those moments happen."
and I say, this is the exact effect of smoking marihuana, on a steady, daily basis, and then experiencing a week or two without the drug, and then experiencing effects of going on and off Prozac and Risperidone, even, 0.5 mg twice daily and at bedtime, but then falling asleep when driving, and experiencing depressed states of being, and always reading reading reading different stuff, crazy, schizophrenic stuff even, Damos you would not Believe the type of reading material, the different realitities people have created in their worlds ... and feeling like a part of all of it and a part of none of it ... the shifts in time, the forgotten past, the forgetting, the forgetting, the forgetting .. the eternal forgetting effect of eternal mj, the desire to get Off of this Drug, and the knowing and feeling I am doomed, at the same, one and the same time.
Tomorrow I go on a long driving holiday, and I was hoping to go without the drug, but it looks like I won't be able to do that ... but I am not doomed.
I just am I.
Time goes by, and we eventually get where we're going.
Good-bye, my friend, until we meet again.
Ciao.
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