Posted by susan47 on December 8, 2007, at 12:19:22
In reply to When? Tell me Now .. when will it happen that I, posted by susan47 on December 4, 2007, at 18:39:56
forgive me, Sarah, but holdin' it in. HOldin' it all in, holdin' it in and getting stoned on pot every fricking day because you cannot stand the reality, the harsh, bare Reality of the soundless Void.
That's what life is, you see, that's what it is, it's really truly soundless, without sound but silence, the silence is so deep and hurts too much, and you have to live with Sarah and and your writing and your drug and sometimes booze too, sometimes you drink too much, but not drunk drink, pain-less drinking, darling, to drop the pain, to forget it and live without it, to live with Hope for a change..
I hae a smile, stretched from ear to ear, to see you walkin' down the road ... we meet at the lights, I stare for a while, the world around us Disappears ... disappears, .. it's gone, and not it's just you and me on my Island of Hope .. a breath between us could be miles. Let me surround you, a sea to your shore, let me be the calm you Seek ... and everytime I'm close to you, there's too much I can't say, and you just Walk Away ...
Ah.
Now I'm going to take my dog for a walk on the beach, when I'd rather be sailing in the tropics, when I'd rather be making love on the beach, in the forest, in a pond, in the Light.
And I will come home and do what I have to do to get through another day. Another day in Hell, because if we are here to learn lessons, then mine is that I will die.
I Love You.
I love ... I need to learn to Love.
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