Posted by Susan47 on January 21, 2006, at 0:25:47
In reply to Re: susan, posted by alexandra_k on January 20, 2006, at 22:53:12
I'm okay, Alexandra, I'm fine. I'm going to be okay. I've worked out the father thing, I really have. And the mother thing as well. I've learned to forgive, and forget. I've learned I can be myself, I can move forward, in spite of their fears for me, I can be honest. I can admit I'm broken. I did it, I told my mother I knew about my mania, it was okay, I knew I get depressed and difficult, and I was sorry, I was a chip off the old block and I couldn't help it, but don't worry, I'm okay with who I am, as long as you are too.
I wish I were different
but I'm not. And I know that they love me, you know? I know that. In my heart, now, I know they feel badly about their malice, about past hurts, I know their guilt is so big actually that they have to push the truth aside. They just can't face their own broken-ness. It's why mine is so hurtful to them.
That's why.
poster:Susan47
thread:600485
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20051205/msgs/601386.html