Posted by Susan47 on January 25, 2006, at 0:35:45
In reply to Re: susan » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on January 23, 2006, at 19:37:19
What you wrote about hospital, the pressure being off, having had enough after a week .. you're normal, I'm sure you're absolutely going to be good and better because you're healthy but you have stuff you need to deal with and I wish wish wish you had the vehicle or the avenue by which to do that.
If you could get all the angst out, and the emotions blocked and screaming to get out, you could work your way out of this. Of course you could, and you will. I hope the day is sooner rather than later. You're younger than me. You're smarter. You already know a lot more than I did about this stuff ... and I feel good, I know I'm better, I know I'm okay and I'm going to be that. I just have to stay slightly manic, on the positive side. I just retain that, don't get too manic, just enough that most people can't really notice it, keep it in check and don't get depressed about myself, thinking positively as much as possible, and it works. But I had a lot of emotional garbage I went through. A terrible lot, and I think you will too. I wish there were a magic pill we could all take that would just rid us of this emotional baggage, that we wouldn't have to punch our way out.
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