Posted by alexandra_k on November 29, 2005, at 3:40:06
In reply to Re: Mania's a circle, you know, because it is » alexandra_k, posted by zeugma on November 28, 2005, at 19:13:57
and i have taken some deep breaths now...
had a cry
had a sleep
fiddled with the contents page...
and have managed to get back into it again
:-)
:-)
:-)
I really do...
love my work when i can manage to get myself into it.
I really really do.I'm sorry about that z.
But... Maybe it shows us something...
I mean... I'm broken and all f*cked up and shouldn't be around people...
But I know that that most definately isn't the case for you - because you are a wonderful human being :-)
But... You don't seem to be able to see it...
And maybe... From where you are standing...
You feel the same about me.Hmm.
So maybe... We aren't that bad. We aren't so bad. Neither of us.
It is hard. But I think... There is hope. There just has to be.
And another thing I noticed...
I started off talking about how I needed to keep away from others because I would only hurt them...
And I ended up talking about how I needed to keep away from others because they would only hurt me...
And so I wonder how much my experience with the latter has led me to conclude the former...
If that makes any sense.
And then I suppose there is the point...
That other people can handle their hurts much much better than we can.
Which isn't to say that we can just disregard other peoples feelings...
But it is to say...
That a little bit of hurt ain't the end of the world.> i struggle with reliability, compassion, self-control, and just plain 'self-possession.'
Yes me too.
> but it is possible that we are also too intolerant re ourselves.Yes. Thats probably true too...
> now there is nothing better than not tolerating one's own lapses (i.e. having a desire not to be a hypocrite),Yes. I think there is truth to that as well...
((((Zeugma))))
Thank you so much.
Thank you.
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