Posted by corafree on November 2, 2004, at 15:53:06
In reply to Re: Just discovered my SI is using illegal drugs-HELP » corafree, posted by sunny10 on November 2, 2004, at 11:13:48
Yeah I see the i and the o are close! I have known my SO for 8 yrs. We had both gone through divorces and met in the hospital, both depressed. He had been suicidal. We hit it off right away, well anyone would with him, he is really good at that. He could have you believe anything. He can charm you to the core. He is handsome, yet now clean has gained 'beer gut' that he promises he'll have gone soon. We cohabitated on and off over these years, never three months straight, usually got in an argument about the 3rd day and he'd run home to mom. He told me in the hospital that he was never going to tweak again, but w/ me, at my house, he started, and then I started again too. I quit on my own at least 5 years now. I lost sooooo much to that drug. At one time, before he had stolen or hidden or lied to the max, I just kind of acted like it wasn't happening because I loved him so much, but soon it came to a head and I think it was then that I stopped loving him. Now, after my father's death, and my mother and sisters and bro dissing me, I am so lonely. Dale has been there for me all along. I got him connected for help, he commited a felony (drugs), well to make this shorter, he has been clean 6 months and says he loves me more now than ever, and will do anything he can to win back my trust and love. It is so hard to say no, especially because I don't even have a good man friend, ya' know someone to lift things for me (broken back from ex-husband), someone to run to store for me if I need something. Anyway, no one in my fam of origin or my three children, want me w/ him. But, all of them have someone with them. They have no idea what loneliness can do to you. I have completely losts my social skills. It's just been too long. He is really into his program, but like I said he is still state ordered. I think it best see how he does after out from under state's thumb, BUT I need the comfort, companionship, and $ now. Those were all things I got from my dad (passed away Feb this year). I always felt stronger when he was alive and if I needed $100, he'd send it to me. My mother has just shut me out! My three grown children all live with a companion. I would have to have a premarital agreement, but how can I protect my state services, because I am receiving SSD, when he has the felon status. I don't know who to talk to about this. Felon's cannot vote, cannot participate in Housing programs, and other things. I really am a sweet person who fell for a charmer. I've even felt suicidal some lonely evenings. lets keep in touch; I'll invite you to Yahoo Messenger. cf
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