Posted by sunny10 on November 1, 2004, at 10:36:33
In reply to Re: Just discovered my SI is using illegal drugs-HELP » sunny10, posted by octopusprime on November 1, 2004, at 10:21:48
Well, those are the big questions, aren't they???
First of all, AM I being rational about ANY of it??
I know that there are TONS of people out there (and, as a matter of fact, on these boards), who think nothing of "dabbling" with recreational drugs. To them, it is not a big deal. But to ME it is. Am I being irrationally afraid of them to begin with? Am I really the problem, not him?
In terms of "what am I looking for out of a relationship? We have been planning to "retire" from the corporate world and run away together to go work at a Club Med or something, live poor in Hawaii or Belize, instead of living poor in the US. If you're going to be poor, it may as well be in the sun...
This is all why I am so shattered by the whole thing... I don't know whether I am being totally "square" or whether he is "truly addicted"; thus there would be no future to plan on. I don't know ANYTHING about drugs- they have always scared me too much to do much research into the phenomena.
But "people in the know", ie; Larry Hoover, and a research doctor that I know personally have/do "dabble in" this stuff. They are chemists and they don't seem afraid.
I am so confused, I don't know what to think...and I know it's not caused by meds- this is REAL stuff happening here- not stuff I've made up in my head...so my pdoc couln't help.
Of course, my T is out of town, and by the time she catches up with her patients, it'll be a month 'til I see her...
In the meantime, I don't know how to "act", how to "react", how to "be".
-sunny10
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