Posted by sunny10 on November 2, 2004, at 11:13:48
In reply to Re: Just discovered my SI is using illegal drugs-HELP » sunny10, posted by corafree on November 1, 2004, at 21:36:43
Wow- we are in "similar" situations,both poor, wanting love... up to a point- I actually didn't knowingly attach myself to an abuser who'd actually been through the system (gee, I THINK I didn't.... so many secrets he holds- maybe that's one of them).
Mine managed to stay away from the drugs for six months on his own- no treatment centers, no nothing- just cold turkey. I think it's a fear of commitment and "loss of identity" crap that caused him to do the opposite of what I would want him to do. Man's equivalent of cold feet, maybe? He used to live in CO, USA. In CO you are legally married if you co-habitate for over 6 months...We are at three months now... I think that's part of it. Who knows, I could be wrong and he's just a user/abuser... G*d, I don't know WHAT to think anymore...
I know what you mean about wanting to love them, wanting to believe that because they have helped you, (nurtured you, supported you,) in the past that they might be rehabilitated?? Maybe, "dear G*d, please, please, please just let me have this one??"
That's what I am feeling right now.
I was freaking out to the point of irrationality when I started this post... "SI" should really be SO, of course...D**'d keyboard keys too close together- typing stutter...
-sunny10
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