Posted by wittgensteinz on March 11, 2009, at 14:57:41
In reply to Re: Negative transference » wittgensteinz, posted by antigua3 on March 11, 2009, at 12:11:11
Antigua,
The thing with strong negative-transference is that the effect tends to be one of re-traumatization. I literally feel 'just' like I did as a young child during one of my mother's rages. I feel sheer panic and terror and start dissociating.
If your pdoc is to you as this pdoc is to me, then it probably isn't a good thing. I know the compulsion to try and stick it out - the desire to make it better, make it different. It certainly doesn't sound like a simple or professional situation between your pdoc and your T. The way you write about him, I feel an aversion to him, if I am honest - where does your T stand in terms of this - does she approve of your seeing him for therapy? What are the alternatives? It's not too late - it's never too late to reassess your treatment plan. Is this the only way to go about things? Do you feel trapped?
Witti
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