Posted by Wittgensteinz on October 29, 2008, at 18:24:42
In reply to Re: Rupture in therapy (long) » Wittgensteinz, posted by lucie lu on October 29, 2008, at 11:55:02
Thanks for your understanding Lucie Lu. In reality I feel a lot of anger toward him, helplessness and grief. The suggestion of entering a day programme also scares me - it makes me realise how badly I'm doing - the pdoc was strongly suggesting it - I almost wonder whether he has his own opinions about my analyst. The first time I met the pdoc he asked among other things how I found my analyst and whether I found him too cold. He also said he knows him from conferences etc. My analyst is pretty well known in the Netherlands. He is a professor and has published a list of titles.
So now I come to the question of consultation - he is a supervisor of other analysts - the idea that he might seek consultation is one I wouldn't dare ask him.
I'll see how it goes this Friday with my T. There's already another matter to catch up on. I agreed some time ago that he could contact my new pdoc and discuss my case with him. My previous pdoc was not very involved to be honest. I asked T a while ago if he had spoken yet with the new pdoc and he said at the time "no but I'll certainly tell you when I do. I like to keep things completely transparent". So I go to my appointment with my pdoc on Tuesday afternoon. That morning I even mention I have the appointment to my T who doesn't give much of a response. At the afternoon appointment the pdoc says he spoke with my T a week ago and seems to have a good picture of how things are (of course he doesn't know about the rupture). I don't really mind T not telling but it doesn't help my trust - I sent him a mail asking him why he didn't let me know he'd been in touch with the pdoc and he wrote back and apologised and said this mistake wasn't helping things. Spot on!
Anyway, I'm going on :( - there's some work for me to do. In a way I feel I should schedule extra sessions as it's difficult day-to-day at the moment, but the idea of me paying out extra because of this seems a bit unreasonable too.
Thanks again LL.
Witti
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