Posted by sunnydays on February 13, 2008, at 19:44:52
In reply to Therapist Speak, posted by Daisym on February 12, 2008, at 23:10:51
I'm feeling very awkward posting here lately, Daisy. I feel like a lot of really intense stuff is going on, but not that I can really express through words. But your post reminded me of something my T said in my last session.
I was getting upset, but he kept pushing me and asking me questions about something. After a few minutes he asked, "It seems like you've been wanting to cry for a few minutes. How did it feel to have me keep asking questions? Was there anything going through your mind?" And I had a hard time expressing it, but eventually I was able to say that I felt the sad part of me was being ignored lately. And he was saying how he was trying to call out the more adult part of me, but he could see how I'd take it that way. And he said something later on in the session when I said, "But you'll get sick of me if I keep asking you the same thing over and over again!" like, "No, I won't. This is how it goes. You keep coming here and working really hard and trying to get what you think you need, and it just takes a long, long time."
The 'what you think you need' part still worries me to some degree - I suspect he doesn't always agree with me about what I need - but it was that same idea of a disconnect between what I want to hear and feel and get from him and what he is giving me, or at least what I perceive he's giving to me.
Like I said, I feel sort of clumsy and awkward when I write lately, so I hope this makes some sort of sense and isn't just all about me. I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm in the cabin across the way from you at Camp Comfort. Maybe you can come over tonight and we can have a fire in the fireplace and drink hot chocolate and eat popcorn.
Take care,
sunnydays
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