Posted by sunnydays on November 28, 2007, at 18:14:11
How do T's hear all this bad stuff from people day in and day out without it affecting them? I don't understand how dealing with me doesn't infect my T. I mean, I guess it's because I'm not as repulsive as I think I am, but it's so hard to believe that.
A lot of this is coming up because my mother was asking me when I was home for Thanksgiving if my T was abusing me, and why would I be emailing a therapist (I accidentally let her see my email inbox one day). And it's totally her issue because she has a history of being sexually abused by therapists in the past. But talking with my T about it freaked me out that he'd hate me or somehow totally agree with her and decide he really didn't want to see me anymore or something.
And I called to tell him I miss him just now. But I wish I had said to call me back because I want to talk to him so much. But I can't help thinking it would be bad to do that even though logically I know he'd be fine with it. But then I just called back and asked if he actually would call me if he got the message tonight. I don't know if he'll get the message tonight or not, he sometimes forgets to check his messages, but maybe he will.
I don't know. I just am having a hard time. I hate how my mom's issues seem to have so much power over me sometimes.
sunnydays
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