Posted by Daisym on February 27, 2006, at 22:38:17
In reply to Re: I need some help -- trigger » Daisym, posted by Shortelise on February 23, 2006, at 12:31:04
I didn't mean to ignore you...in fact I was pretty happy to see your name here. It was just hard and painful to see the truth in print.
Yes, I think I'll have to leave this marriage in order to fully heal. There are lots of obvious reasons why I chose my husband...obvious now, after three years of therapy. I've said a number of times that I wish I'd done this work before I got married. My therapist said if I wasn't ready, it wouldn't have mattered.
The other day I was frustrated about back sliding into a funk when "nothing was really wrong...nothing was broken." My therapist looked at me a minute and said, "your marriage is broken." Yes, there were more tears.
It is critical that I figure out why I can't leave just yet. I want to say it is for the boys, or about money. But in my heart of hearts, I know this isn't true. So why do I stay? I love him still, but it isn't enough. I think I'm hoping he will leave and spare me having to hurt him. I don't know how to hurt him.
Be well. I've missed you.
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