Posted by Daisym on February 15, 2006, at 23:23:03
In reply to Re: I need some help -- trigger » Daisym, posted by madeline on February 15, 2006, at 20:40:57
Thanks you guys. This is so hard.
Hard to believe I don't have to keep the peace. Hard to believe that I'm so scared of what I want. And hating myself every single minute for being anxious and uptight about just doing what I want to do. Instead of what he wants me to do.
Falls is right...he doesn't like this. And we haven't even gotten to the sexual stuff yet. Or again. He doesn't know about the csa...but his behavior itself is enough to say no to. He wants me to stop therapy, he thinks my therapist is changing me for the worst.
I find myself wanting to trade -- using sex as the currency to be able to keep therapy out of the discussion. What does that say about me? And I don't really want to tell my therapist this part of it. I'm mortified.
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