Posted by daisym on November 7, 2005, at 1:28:20
But I don't really know of what. I've wanted to call my therapist since about 7:30 tonight. I've held out -- because I don't even know what I want/need him for. I've managed to put away the little pieces of me for most of the weekend, I think because my son was home visiting from college. But he left this afternoon and I've been slowly drifting into a gloom since then. I'm on a new medication that is making me feel sick, I'm facing another tough week at work and I have no idea how to restart the conversations in therapy. I feel so far away from myself tonight...disconnected and a drift somehow. And sex has triggered all the different parts of me in so many different ways. I should have said no, but I still don't know how.
I don't even know what I'm asking or why I'm posting. I just feel scared of how I feel tonight and wanted to anchor that fear somewhere. I guess I feel small and alone. It is just awfully dark out there.
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thread:576259
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