Posted by daisym on November 7, 2005, at 23:52:55
In reply to Re: I had to cancel today, posted by antigua on November 7, 2005, at 21:33:37
My therapist called and after some fancy manuvering we figured out this weird time sandwiched between two of his sessions so that I could still make the doctor's appointment. It was a little weird seeing his other clients,coming and going, as there wasn't a time buffer, but it was better than not seeing him.
We talked about the fear last night and feeling so alone. I told him I missed him and he said I should have called. He said he likes the weepy me a lot so it would have been OK to hear to from her. (such a smart alex!) I finally figured out that what I'm really afraid of is this deeping gloom that has the dark pull of hopelessness and wanting to exit...stage left. He told me i just have to hang in until the new med kicks in. And I checked in again about his ability to hear all this, including hearing about these suicidal feelings. He said he isn't letting go and it is OK for me to cling tightly.
I'm glad I went. It wasn't hard to get started at all, it was hard to stop! I wish the sadness would ease up but it sure it great to have so much support.
Thank you all.
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