Posted by Karen_kay on January 23, 2004, at 13:16:02
In reply to Re: Thanks all :) » Karen_kay, posted by Poet on January 23, 2004, at 9:59:23
I'm feeling better today, if you haven't already noticed :) So, I have a jerk for a therapist (and that was a joke). I understand he was upset. But, I'm sure he'll be OK about everything. I'm not entirely sure he'll trust me completely or that I'll ever trust him completely. I mean, he really flew off the handle and that made me upset. But, I do know that he has a history of not handling situations appropriately, like the time he put me in the hospital. We talked about that and he agreed he didn't handle that one well. But, at least I'm the first client he's ever put in the hospital...OMG!!!! What am I going?? I think this is called Gaslighting??? Where the therapist convinces the client that "she's" crazy... I swear, I'm going to make a film about this whole blasted so-called journey. "When you therapist has more issues than you do and you don't know it" Yes, I think that title might work fine. So, I see him bright and early Wednesday morning and I'm telling him that he needs to get things together. That he's always accusing me of "playing games" (Hello! That's why I'm there! For instance, I wanted to come right out and say, "You tell me too much about your personal life and so I worry about you", but I couldn't because I like hearing about his personal life. So, I said "I don't like your wife and he said, "Well, why would you be a better wife to me?" And he thought this would be a good excuse to build my self esteem but I wouldn't play the stupid game. So I kept saying, "Well, don't you think it's strange that I worry so much about you." as my way of trying to get him to THINK aobut why I would worry so much about him and HE JUST DIDN'T GET IT!!! OK, so I do play games. I jsut want people to read my mind! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK, HONESTLY!!!!
And besides, why is it my responsibilty to tell him the things he does wrong anyway? Doesn't he have a supervisor for that? The last session he was talking way too much and I was getting annoyed! Talking about his daughter forever, but it would be rude to interupt and say, "HELLO! Let's get back to me now!" AGHHHHHHHHH!
OK, I'm going in on Wedsnesday and saying, "Listen, I want you to continue answering my questions. But, I don't want to hear aobut your personal life anymore. I don't want to hear about your daughter or your sleep schedule, or your fights with your wife, or any other crap that life throws your way. You're here to listen to me talk about the crap that life throws my way. Now, if you don't understand this, perhaps I should start seeing someone else? And if you are concerned about me looking in the phonebook at your phone number, maybe you could have an unlisted phone number? I have one. I assure you I'm not going to drive past your house or call you up. Thanks for making me feel so grat for being honest with you. Just another example of how understanding you are. We've worked through this before, and I assume we can work through this again. But, maybe you will one day learn to think before you react, DICK!"
Is that pleasant enough? I'm a sweetheart, aren't I? But, he did put me in the hospital...We've worked it out before and I'm sure we'll work it out again. but I'm glad I'm keeping track of all the mistakes he's made :) I'm even planning on who will be playing him in the movie...I'm telling you, I'm going to make the damn thing! (PLEASE... Let's just hope for a happy ending. Hmmm...maybe Karen and Bubba meet up 6 years later and get married?? (and that too was a joke!! NEVER!!!))
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