Posted by susan47 on August 5, 2006, at 11:31:38
In reply to Re: .., posted by Estella on August 5, 2006, at 8:49:40
Maybe because it was easier not to take the responsibility of your pain when others were doing it for you, and the drugs .. the drugs which were necessary, at some level, for you to survive the hospital, the reality of what was happening but-not-really-you, this was a you that is in the past, this is not you now, it doesn't have to be you now.. your t is just a person with a lot of problems too. Just a person and a person you looked up to and loved and maybe admired, someone you knew who cared, cared deeply, was attached to your pain .. I think they are Estella. I think they get attached to the idea of our pain, and their idea of being able to take care of that. To make it go away. When we refuse to see that they cannot do that, that they need our Consent, we need to consent to take responsibility for being who we are .. who we want to be .. for having a new vision of ourselves and living into that ... I sound really ... kind of ... well, better. Does it sound good Estella? Do I sound better?
I've never been where you are. I work there though. For the older people.. it can last a lifetime if you need it to Estella, you make the decision from the strongest part of you, the part of you that you have a vision for. It's the vision that matters. Without it, you drift forever. I drift. We all do. We all need something to live for, a vision of a better life. A better reality. Some people have it. They had a vision.
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