Posted by henrietta on May 21, 2006, at 14:39:15
In reply to Re: ****trigger thread****, posted by Estella on May 21, 2006, at 5:53:07
I wondered if you were thinking of that Estella when you picked this name....but I decided not, because I only remembered her as cold and didn't remember her pain ... And I don't think of you as cold and unfeeling... (I'd forgotten the ending.)
First, can I say that if I don't respond sometimes, or am slow to respond, it's not because of anything you've said or done. Please promise me you will remember that. It will be because either I'm staying away from the computer for any of a number of reasons (I really don't like to spend much time online), or because of my own stuff. It will NEVER be because you've done anything wrong.
I worried a bit that I shouldn't have asked you about this, that maybe you weren't ready to talk about it, or had already processed it and didn't want it opened up again, and were sorry you had written about it. I'm not sorry you wrote about it. I'm only sorry it happened, that you were in so much pain that you hurt yourself so badly.
But I DO think there's hope, yes I do. This new therapist can help, or if she can't, you can find someone who will. I think you've got so many strengths and virtues, and such wisdom and compassion, that I honestly, truly believe there is hope for you. You have amazing resilience...
I think you'll be able to hold on (and do more than just hold on) until you find someone to help you, until you find the help and care you deserve.
You seem immensely loveable to me, and I can't believe that you won't find other people who feel that, who see it in you.Brave. That's the word I keep thinking when I think of you. You are tremendously brave.
Love, hen
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