Posted by Estella on May 21, 2006, at 5:49:53
In reply to Re: little bit of pain... » Estella, posted by henrietta on May 17, 2006, at 14:29:53
sorry should have said before...
i guess it has been something there has been a drive to do...
to have an outward expression of the inner pain.
and it does that.
i don't know why but there is some relief in that. i'm sorry. i know that sounds sick. but there is some relief in that. i'm not reccomending that strategy to anyone... but i think that was a turning point for me. after that things got better.
days in hospital.
i remember thinking 'why don't they come'
like the owen poem
'why don't they come'
my parents
man oh man that was crazy
they didn't want to come
they didn't want to know me
there was some reassurance in that
my father was in a panic
he didn't want a girl...
but a disabled girl???
hell no
nobody came...acting it out
acting it out
am i doomed to act it out for ever???????
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