Posted by PM80 on March 31, 2005, at 15:06:14
In reply to I can't Remember, posted by Susan47 on March 31, 2005, at 13:38:28
I have felt this way. No doubt our circumstances and history are different, but I know what it feels like to... , well, it IS hard to put into words. Such sadness that you feel you are drowning in it. All that you based everything on suddenly is gone. It does not exist anymore and you wonder how it could have been possible to have seemed so solid when it now is revealed to have been an illusion. All your hopes no longer are. The one source of strength you depended on, does not want you to depend on him any longer. Yes, it feels like you are dying. BUT you could not feel like you are dying if you weren't actually alive. Keep writing here, and just put one foot in front of the other in front of the other - even if you are crying all the way. For me, I still miss him three years later, but it does not in any way define my life now.
I could be reading your posts wrong, but they just remind me of me 3 years ago. The truth is that it was solid, but it is not now. And this is not the contradiction that I initially thought it was. You must be a remarkable person to be able to love like you do.
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