Posted by jujube on September 24, 2004, at 9:11:54
In reply to Thanks, jujube, posted by partlycloudy on September 24, 2004, at 8:42:33
I know what you mean. Sometimes our minds just won't shut off when we want them to (maybe researchers should develop some kind of on/off switch for us ruminaters!). I remember a girl speaking at an AA open speaker meeting once, and she said something like: I have been living inside my head for a while, and it's not a great neighborhood to be in. God, did she hit the nail on the head. I never thought I would ever be able to stop drinking (or even that I wanted to). Although I knew I had a problem, partying was, and had been, such a big part of my life from the time I was about 15. There wasn't much I did (except work) that didn't involve drinking. I think, eventually, your mind and body will stop fighting each other, and sobriety will be a welcome, tranquil and reassuring place, if that makes any sense. I know you had bad experiences at AA, and I am not suggesting that you try it again. I would, however, suggest that you read an AA book called "Living Sober". I don't know that I ever really got much from the meetings themselves (except some contact with other alcoholics and a sense that there is life after drinking), but that particular book I found useful. I still read it at times when I am going through a particularly difficult or challenging time. Anyways, don't give up. This is a battle that can be won. Take good care, and I am here if you need to chat.
> I truly appreciate your supportive words. My mind is a scary place lately. Moods all over the place, changing my mind several times during the course of the day, elation and utter desolation within the same hour. I do get some comfort in knowing that I have make things slightly less complicated by refraining from drinking in stealth and in public.
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