Posted by antigua on July 11, 2004, at 20:45:26
In reply to Re: 2ndXround...you ok?, posted by 2ndXround on July 11, 2004, at 4:55:14
Yea, I can see that the familiar is more comfortable, but.... what about the excitement and possibilities of the unknown? Who knows what's out there for you? A better life? A man who not only loves you but understands you? You could drop all the sh%t in your life and make a new start.
Lately I've been thinking about what my life would be like if I started over. It might be really great. I could MAYBE live the life I want to live, instead of the one dictated to me by overbearing personalities who crush me like a bug.
I know I have to be sober, though, otherwise it's all a pipe dream. SOmetimes now I can even see living the life I want w/in the parameters ofmy current life. I don't have to be pushed around and told what to do--and if someone else doesn't like it, they can just take a hike.
Not my kids, though, but I feel secure w/them. I've been pretty honest w/them so they know my life isn't a bed of roses. I try to make their childhood better than mine, and I think I have, but they'll face their own demons: I can't protect them forever.
Good luck, and post once in a while to let me know how you are. I care.
antigua
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