Posted by 2ndXround on July 11, 2004, at 4:55:14
In reply to Re: 2ndXround...you ok?, posted by antigua on July 10, 2004, at 15:25:40
Hi Antigua
Exactly right....I probably didn't need any excuse, my mind way already made up. The stress I was under at the time (watching helplessly as my daughter was destroying her life by following in my shoes; my house taken over by drug dealers; money, credit cards, computers, cameras stolen; 24 hour survailance by police after being held at gunpoint, breakins almost every night; my husband looking the other way, in total denial...choosing to play golf while the police searched our home and arrested our daughter...and blaming me for calling the police in the first place because of a stolen car in our garage, drugs, loaded guns; telling me to stop complaining....).....I better stop, sorry.
But nothing will make me trust or respect my husband now....and the strange thing is, he doesn't understand! He acts confused like "What did I do?" when I tell him it's over! Even stranger is why I am afraid to leave.
I guess the familiar is less scary then the unfamiliar....even if it makes me unhappy.
I am really sorry to go on about things that have nothing to do with my using. But I am not going to delete it because it felt good to get (even a little) out.
I do think your friend is deceiving herself. After 16 years clean there was definitely something going on in her life that triggered her. It was not just a "Well, I think I will go back to hell again because I feel like it"
She needs to be a little more honest with herself. Something happened....
Think of it this way...at least you have a second house in case you need to get away....(:....all I have is a 3 story office building. Not quite as homey.
Gosh....you got my mind off my problems!!! Thanks!!!!!
You are great if you made it this far.
Take care
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