Posted by alexandra_k on May 20, 2019, at 18:08:22
In reply to Re: there's nothing here, posted by alexandra_k on May 20, 2019, at 15:43:11
this is why i gave my early work to bob. you can find it when you google.
it stops the people who saw it passing (too much of it) off as their own, down the track.
my ideas.
i see people writing them up getting credit for them.
narrative stuff on the self.
indeterminacy and implications...and so on...
i know i am a product of my times and i appropriate other people's ideas without realising...
but people do look... guilty. ashamed. embarrassed. at times.
i kind of think... if you make a habit of that... of writing up other peoples stuff... then sure, okay, whatever, that's your reputation in the field...
but they get all the money and i have to cry for welfare handouts.
so...
ideas are easy / come easy / come quickly / there is a flow of them.
it's being forced to think slowly that's painful.
people move onto different things and don't want to talk about their old work because they have moved on.
so people want everyone to think that it's me. that i'm slow. that i can't work quickly. that i'm stuck on teh same old idea.
people wanted me to recycle stuff i wasn't credited for earlier (so they could berate me for old ideas)
they wanted me to write longer (they didn't think i could)
then when i did they wanted shorter
they wanted ideas
no they wanted repetition and repetition and no new ideas only old references
they just want me to be weak and psychotic because it makes them feel somehow better about themselves.
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