Posted by TamaraJ on March 1, 2005, at 11:04:21
In reply to Re: Kara, my turn. How you are doing? » TamaraJ, posted by KaraS on March 1, 2005, at 3:30:47
> Hi,
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> Hormones can wreak a lot of havoc on our systems. That could very well be the cause if there's no other external reason for your mood change. It's worth looking into. Try not to worry so much about letting others down. You have medical problems. You can't help it. You need to do whatever is going to get you well - not whatever is going to make other people happy. I struggle with that same issue. It's not an easy situation.
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-- I know what you mean. My hormones have been crazy lately. It is the second cycle I have had in a month (yet again). When that happens, my mood and energy really take a nosedive. I slept and slept and slept yesterday, which is so unlike me. When I feel like this, I know I am not ready to go back to work. I can't even take care of myself when I am like this. I had so hoped that I would have some energy to start doing some things like exercising, etc. so I would be ready for work. But, I know I am of no use to anyone right now. I sent an e-mail to my pdoc. I told him that I don't even have the emotional or physical fortitude right now to come in for an appointment and that I would even be willing to re-try the Anafranil to see if I can get up to 75 mg. I can't go on like this much longer. And, it is time I was completely honest with people about the depth of the depression. I have tried to be upbeat and have people believe that I am just mildly depressed, but I am not doing myself any favors by doing that. I hope the pdoc calls me back today. He may, however, be fed up with me. And, what's so hard is that I don't even have a family doctor that I can go to. Whine! Whine! Whine! Sorry Kara, you didn't need to hear all that. I apologize.
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> My friend is a very positive thinker. She says it just wasn't meant to be and that there may be some good reason why she didn't get the house. At least my friend's broker is a really nice guy - definitely a lot of integrity. I try hard to note the good people in the world otherwise I get too depressed over all of the sleazoids out there.
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-- It's good that your friend has maintained a positive outlook throughout all of this. And, she's lucky that her broker has a lot of integrity. I agree with you - we have to look for the good in people. Life would just be too hard to take if we couldn't find good in at least some people. But, there are good, honest and caring people out there. So, that makes it all worthwhile.
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> So far so good but we've been down this path twice before and it didn't work out either of those times. I have a feeling that the third time is the charm though.
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-- That's the attitude :-) What is that expression - the universe unfolds as it should (?) My fingers, toes, legs and even my eyes are crossed for you guys!
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> Yeah, same here. I worry that if I weren't able to take care of them, then they'd be up for adoption - stuck in cages for days on end. They could end up with people who don't take good care of them or even abuse them. I can't stand to think about it. I just have to manage to take care of them.
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-- That's the way I feel too. I got my dog from the Humane Society, and it was heartbreaking to see all those dogs in cages needing homes. Luckily, my dog had only been there for a few days when I got her, so she didn't seem any the worse for wear after her experience. I wish I had a farm and then I could take them all home with me and they could be safe and happy. I wish more people would get their pets from the Humane Society instead of going to breeders and pet stores. It's sad.
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> When I first was diagnosed with CFS I had flu like systoms that came and went. It was like a stomach flu and it would run its course like a regular virus. I'd feel better for a while and then it would start again. The nausea was worse than the fatigue or other symptoms. I thought I was going to have to live my whole life with that nausea. Fortunately as the years passed, the attacks came less frequently. Then it got to the point where I only get them if I'm really run down. This last episode of extreme anxiety where I wasn't sleeping or eating, I thought for sure I'd get a CFS attack but it didn't happen. I guess if there's a silver lining here...
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-- I just can't imagine how hard it must be to live with CFS. My heart goes out to you. A friend of mine has CFS, and it has been really hard on him. He was always so active - a real workaholic. He has adjusted to it, but it took a number of years before he was able to accept and adjust to his limitations. I'm glad for you that you didn't experience a flare up of your CFS symptoms during the most recent period of extreme anxiety. Thank goodness. The anxiety alone is enough!
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> Are you feeling any better today? Less nausea, less sad? I read your post below about stopping smoking. Are you sure you want to do that now? It's going to add a lot more stress at an already stressful time. Is there any way you could get the nicotine patches to help you with this?
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-- I just feel drained. And, as for quitting smoking, maybe what I have to do to begin with is try to cut down. That hasn't always been the most effective approach for me, but I will try. I didn't take any Provigil yesterday or today, and I don't have a piercing headache or any nausea. I will probably try the Provigil again tomorrow to see how I react. Maybe it's just not for me. Bummer. The headache I could handle, but the nausea was gutwrenching (a real burning sensation and like I was constantly going to throw up - yuk). Oh well. There has to be something out there that will help me. Seems like both of us are having a heck of a time finding not only a med that works, but also one that we can tolerate. How's the Zoloft titration going? Have you been able to tolerate increasing the dose even modestly? Any more thought to trying a different AD? And, have you been able to keep the anxiety under control a bit more lately? It is amazing how much anxiety can exacerbate depression, isn't it? Well, I will keep thinking positive thoughts that you can begin to tolerate a closer to therapeutic dose of the Zoloft or that you find a more suitable and tolerable AD.Take good care of yourself Kara. I will talk to you soon.
Tamara
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