Posted by TamaraJ on February 25, 2005, at 20:21:29
In reply to Re: Kara, my turn. How you are doing? » TamaraJ, posted by KaraS on February 25, 2005, at 16:52:54
> Hi,
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> Yeah, the apathy sucks. I do envy your ability or motivation to keep your house clean though. Mine is a nightmare. Wish I had the energy to clean it. It's good that you have a lot of motivation to socialize on-line at least.
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-- I have been spending way too much time on-line and on babble. I really have to cut down in the next little while before I return to work. But, it has been so nice to have a place to hang out where people understand and have been through, or are going through, similar experiences. There are a lot of nice people here. And, the past month and a half, I have been couped up because of the weather and not being able to get since I wasn't able to get a winter coat and mitts on because of the cast, so spending time on-line was therapeutic. Now I have no excuses. I can get out again, so I'll just have to push myself to get active. I'd like to try yoga, and maybe I'll try to go to a class a day or every second day for the next couple of weeks.
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> So you're way ahead of me on the tapping. I'm bummed it didn't work for you. Did you try the EFT or Lambrou's techniques? Lambrou has things you can do when it doesn't work to reverse your polarity and correcting polarity disorganization etc. I wonder if any of that really makes a difference.
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-- I tried the EFT. Perhaps I should look into Lambrou's techniques and give it another go one day.of time. I actually thought it was working at first, but then I had a really bad day and the tapping didn't make a dent in the anxiety. But, that was when I was taking L-Glutamine and was having a bad reaction to Depo. After about two weeks of use, I found that the L-Glutamine made me quite wired and jittery. It was very unpleasant.
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> You were lucky. I took Ativan for 2-3 weeks - only a little bit at night to help me sleep. Then I went off it for 2-3 weeks and then I went back on it for 2-3 weeks. When I stopped it at that point all hell broke loose. My pdoc said that my body "remembered the Ativan" during the break I took from it. So I've been a bit afraid of using benzos ever since. I will probably have to use it for the move as well as for getting onto Zoloft and then spend a year trying to get off of it.
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-- Maybe if you tried skipping a couple of days instead of using it for 2 - 3 weeks straight you might not build up such a tolerance. But, everybody responds to differently to benzos, what works for one won't be effective for another (as you well know). I'm just glad that I have it when I need it. And, I'm sure it will be a blessing for you when you move.
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> Yeah, I think that it will probably be a good thing for me to have someone else around now. She is a good loyal friend - a bit obnoxious and hard to take at times - but her heart is good. The reduction in my expenses will be good for me as well. The downside is that it will be her house and her furniture and her rules. Also she has terrible taste. Her apartment is so dark and cluttered. You wouldn't believe how ugly it is! (meow...) It will be interesting to see how all of our animals get along (to say the least). She has 3 cats and a parrot and I have 2 cats. (One of her cats and the parrot are quite nasty so I'm a bit concerned about that as well.) On the plus side, she is the one who did the reiki healing. I've been using my light box daily and I don't feel as good as after she did that healing on me. It might have been a coincidence. It's so hard for me to believe in that stuff. Unfortunately what ever it was only lasted two days. I haven't felt as good since.
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-- As long as she means well, that's the important thing. And, when she gets on your nerves, you have your own space to go to to get away. It's nice too that you will be saving on expenses. That's always a relief. Too bad about her taste though :-(. Once you get settled, maybe you can start making some subtle suggestions to help un-ugly the place (meow meow) :-) Try to get her hooked on Trading Spaces or Divine Design to get her thinking. As for the reiki, I guess you won't know if it was a coincidence until you have the opportunity to have another session. I hope when you have another session you get positive results again.OMG, I just had a little bit of a freak-out. I hadn't locked my front door, and, while I was typing away, I heard the front door opening. I hustled over to the front door, and there is some guy starting to come into my house! Oops. Sorry he says, wrong house??? Whaaaaaaat the . . . .!!! I don't usually worry about those things. I live in a pretty good neighborhood and have gone to bed a few times with the front door unlocked. Now I feel all nervous. I am letting my imagination run away with me. Ok, deep breaths, deep breaths, deep breaths.
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> I'm not so much concerned with parting with my furniture because I don't have much that's nice. I'd like to keep my couches but that's about it. I'm more concerned with how to sell the stuff. I'm too afraid to put an ad in somewhere and have strangers in LA coming into my place. It's just too dangerous. I guess there's a thrift shop kind of a place that I can call and they would come over and offer you some money for the stuff and then cart it away. That's probably my best bet - if they even want the stuff. I would hardly make any money that way though. I don't know. There's one end table that's probably worth something so maybe I should take that elsewhere. I don't know. How do people do this?
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-- I understand your concern about the ad. I wouldn't want strangers coming to my place. Your best bet is probably second hand store(s). If you think the end table might be worth something, then you might want to try to get it to an antique store/dealer for an appraisal. It would be a shame for you not to get what it is worth. When I was getting rid of things, my brother and some friends knew of people who were interested in some of things I was selling, so I was comfortable with them coming over because people I knew could vouch for them.
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> > I have some chromium here. I'll try adding it in to my regimen again. It's the GTF version though - I think other versions are better but I'll finish this one for now.
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-- I've been using the GTF version, and it seems to work fine.
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> Babble is great for information and for support. I've learned a lot about meds and supplements as well as receiving support. Previously I didn't have anyone in my life who understood or could relate to what I've been going through so I didn't talk much to anyone about it. My family was the opposite of helpful for most of this time. They saw me as lazy. They just didn't get it. I moved across country partly to get away from them. Ironically, now my mother is going through this. One day she said to me "Now I understand." You can't imagine how gratifying that was (even though I would never have wished this on her). She is finally responding to Effexor though so now she thinks that my problem is that I haven't given these medications enough time. I told her that I was on Effexor for several years but it still doesn't get through to her. GRRRR. She keeps thinking that if I just go to see a doctor more often that I'd get better. I have told her that I know what all of my options are at this point but that doesn't change her mind. So frustrating! (Sorry for the rant.) Overall though I have to say that my family is much more supportive now which is a blessing.
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-- Lack of support and understanding certainly don't make it easier to go through and recover from depression and anxiety. My family can have their heads in the sand at times, which can be very frustrating and only makes me feel worse. They just can't seem to accept that I am going through this. So, they were spending a lot of time trying to convince me that nothing was wrong and all I have been doing is making myself sicker by taking medication. My mom has always been mildly depressed ever since I was a kid - sleeping a lot, pessimistic, lack of motivation. She says that's the way she has always been and there's nothing wrong with her. OK. Mothers eh! GRRRR is right! -:) It must be somewhat of a mixed blessing for you - your mother understanding what you've gone through and are going through, but now having an opinion on how you are handling your med trials. Rant away Kara :-) One day I'll be ranting about my mom, and then you'll be sorry (just kidding). I'm glad to hear that your family has become much more supportive. It really does make a huge difference.
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> Speaking of doctors, when do you meet with that healer doctor? Should be soon, right?
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-- I was told to call to make another appointment for early March. So, I will call next week to set something up. I had almost forgotten about that. Thanks for reminding me! I'm looking forward to it.Take care. I'll talk to you soon.
Tamara
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