Posted by KaraS on February 25, 2005, at 23:27:39
In reply to Re: Kara, my turn. How you are doing? » KaraS, posted by TamaraJ on February 25, 2005, at 20:21:29
> > Hi,
> -- I have been spending way too much time on-line and on babble. I really have to cut down in the next little while before I return to work. But, it has been so nice to have a place to hang out where people understand and have been through, or are going through, similar experiences. There are a lot of nice people here. And, the past month and a half, I have been couped up because of the weather and not being able to get since I wasn't able to get a winter coat and mitts on because of the cast, so spending time on-line was therapeutic. Now I have no excuses. I can get out again, so I'll just have to push myself to get active. I'd like to try yoga, and maybe I'll try to go to a class a day or every second day for the next couple of weeks.
I hope that once you start work you'll still come here to talk. You would be very missed if you didn't. Besides we can still offer you a lot of support as you enter back into the work world. But it will be better for you to have more outside interests as well.
> -- I tried the EFT. Perhaps I should look into Lambrou's techniques and give it another go one day.of time. I actually thought it was working at first, but then I had a really bad day and the tapping didn't make a dent in the anxiety. But, that was when I was taking L-Glutamine and was having a bad reaction to Depo. After about two weeks of use, I found that the L-Glutamine made me quite wired and jittery. It was very unpleasant.
I doubt that the accupressure would work against a drug or supplement that was making things worse. Maybe without that kind of negative influence, you might succeed with it. Then again, maybe it just wasn't for you. I'll let you know if I have more success.
> -- As long as she means well, that's the important thing. And, when she gets on your nerves, you have your own space to go to to get away. It's nice too that you will be saving on expenses. That's always a relief. Too bad about her taste though :-(. Once you get settled, maybe you can start making some subtle suggestions to help un-ugly the place (meow meow) :-) Try to get her hooked on Trading Spaces or Divine Design to get her thinking. As for the reiki, I guess you won't know if it was a coincidence until you have the opportunity to have another session. I hope when you have another session you get positive results again.
Yeah, I'll have my own room to go to and we'll probably be on different schedules so it'll be ok. As for her taste, she thinks she has the best taste. She works in catering and she goes to the homes of really wealthy people. I've worked a couple of times with her so I know that she sees houses that are beautifully decorated. How she can't tell the difference between that and her place is beyond me. She also sets up buffet tables and seated tables and decorates them nicely for her job so she thinks she's an artist and that her taste is wonderful. You'd really have to see her place to believe how ugly it is. Everything is dark, very dark, wtih barely an inch of free space anywhere. Horrible dark old pictures are on the wall. I tell her outright how horrible her taste is. I tell her to get rid of certain really ugly things. She just laughs it off. She has decided that I just don't appreciate her good taste. (Everyone I know of who has seen her place thinks it's horrendous so it's not just my opinion.)
> OMG, I just had a little bit of a freak-out. I hadn't locked my front door, and, while I was typing away, I heard the front door opening. I hustled over to the front door, and there is some guy starting to come into my house! Oops. Sorry he says, wrong house??? Whaaaaaaat the . . . .!!! I don't usually worry about those things. I live in a pretty good neighborhood and have gone to bed a few times with the front door unlocked. Now I feel all nervous. I am letting my imagination run away with me. Ok, deep breaths, deep breaths, deep breaths.
Wow, that's scary!!! Since you continued writing I'm assuming that it all turned out ok. I bet you'll be keeping your door shut and locked from now on...
> -- I understand your concern about the ad. I wouldn't want strangers coming to my place. Your best bet is probably second hand store(s). If you think the end table might be worth something, then you might want to try to get it to an antique store/dealer for an appraisal. It would be a shame for you not to get what it is worth. When I was getting rid of things, my brother and some friends knew of people who were interested in some of things I was selling, so I was comfortable with them coming over because people I knew could vouch for them.I'll have to see what I can do. Unfortunately I just don't have the energy to go shopping around for the best deals. I just want the stuff gone and I don't want to have to worry about where to store it. My anxiety is creeping up just thinking about it all.
> -- I've been using the GTF version, and it seems to work fine.
Ok, good, I'll use that then.
> -- Lack of support and understanding certainly don't make it easier to go through and recover from depression and anxiety. My family can have their heads in the sand at times, which can be very frustrating and only makes me feel worse. They just can't seem to accept that I am going through this. So, they were spending a lot of time trying to convince me that nothing was wrong and all I have been doing is making myself sicker by taking medication. My mom has always been mildly depressed ever since I was a kid - sleeping a lot, pessimistic, lack of motivation. She says that's the way she has always been and there's nothing wrong with her. OK. Mothers eh! GRRRR is right! -:) It must be somewhat of a mixed blessing for you - your mother understanding what you've gone through and are going through, but now having an opinion on how you are handling your med trials. Rant away Kara :-) One day I'll be ranting about my mom, and then you'll be sorry (just kidding). I'm glad to hear that your family has become much more supportive. It really does make a huge difference.How frustrating for you that they won't accept what you're going through. It's hard enough with this condition without having to prove that you really have a problem. I think that with mothers they worry that they might have done something wrong and are responsible if we don't do well or they'd prefer to think that they didn't pass on any genetic predisposition towards this. It's too scary for them to even consider it.
> -- I was told to call to make another appointment for early March. So, I will call next week to set something up. I had almost forgotten about that. Thanks for reminding me! I'm looking forward to it.I can't wait to hear what he has to say and whether he can in fact make a difference with these kinds of problems.
Talk to you later,
Kara
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