Posted by Mr Cushing on December 16, 2002, at 9:02:04
In reply to Re: Bohemian-yet-shy guy w/mental ill., seeks s.f. :-), posted by daizy on December 16, 2002, at 7:22:03
Hey Daizy,Yeah, I could tell from your previous posts that you could have some sort of idea what it's like to be able to party hard for days on end.... like going from one party, sleeping for a few hours "maybe", going to another party that lasts untill about the middle of the next day, and then just crash for about a day or so.
Well... that for me now is a complete no-no. I just can't do that anymore.
With my friends, you know, it depends. Some of them can't relate to what I'm going through whatsoever and have kind of taken a backwards step. But that's cool, I don't need people like that in my life anymore anyways. I do have a fair number though that have pretty much adjusted "parts" of their schedules in order to suit me. Like instead of going out all night, we'll hook up somewhere around 5:00 or so and just chill till like 10:00. That gives us enough time to spend together and if they want to go out after that, it's no big deal. Nobody, so far, has ever pressured me into drinking anything. I tried a few times just having one drink, but obviously I can't do that anymore either. Makes me feel too grouchy the next day. In fact, this is funny too, been talking to my PDoc about this, the only drug that I'm allowed to play with a little bit that doesn't knock me completely off course and that I totally enjoy is marijuana. I'm Canadian, and well, you should know how good our "good" weed is. Some of my boys now will drop by in the afternoon with some amazing hydro and we'll just smoke a spliff and talk for a few hours. But other than that, had to completely cut that part of my life out.
One of my best friends though has even told me that she is much happier with me now that I've quit partying all the time. That I'm in a much better mood and I'm a Hell of a lot easier to relate to. So I don't necessarily view that as a bad thing.
But yeah, I find that you need to take babysteps with this whole ordeal. Before, no matter if I was on the depressed or manic part of the spectrum, if something came into my head that I wanted to do, Hell, I'd just do it. Now I have to go through that whole thought process thing again wondering if it's really a good thing for me to be doing. But I don't have to cut out "everything" in my life. You just kind of learn to "pace" yourself.
For you though, the very first thing I would start doing is going back to a MD or PDoc and telling them exactly what you're going through. You need to find out exactly what it is you're dealing with. On one hand, that will be kind of scary at first, but on the other, once you find out what you're dealing with and how best to treat it, it's all uphill from there.
Anyways, I'm just rambling on now.... time to stop lol...
poster:Mr Cushing
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