Posted by Susan47 on October 16, 2005, at 11:31:10
In reply to Re: VIBRATORS **triggers**, posted by fairywings on October 14, 2005, at 0:59:12
The loss of time? God, I've lost thirty years or more.
I can't believe I lived in such a real dream world.
It was all my own making, and most of the time I was so messed up, so f*cked up in my ability to get along in life, that the dream's now almost totally, completely forgotten. My life is pretty much a blank right now. Only the present seems to be real, and my dreams. My dreams right now're somehow affecting most of my waking moods. I'm so f*cked up, I can't believe it, but at the same time, I'm getting emdr, I need to quit 'cause cannot afford it right now, need to keep going, need to talk, need to cry and laugh, laugh a lot ... I need so much right now, and have pretty much very few places to turn, because I prefer it that way, I prefer my own company.
Sighing heavily,
Your friend, Susan. BTW, thanks for listening. I don't know what happens to our brains when we're, I guess traumatized is a word, but it seems like a big one. Do you find yourself minimizing what happened? I think I do, to the point I blanked it all out and then when it popped up, I just got to thinking, Oh, yeah.
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