Posted by B2chica on July 18, 2005, at 9:25:33 [reposted on July 22, 2005, at 0:57:51 | original URL]
my hubby's been hounding me for sex that last few weeks. when he tries and i push him away then he withholds any affection. he'll turn if i go to kiss him and when i try to hold him he pushes me away. i couldn't take it anymore so i told him i would this last weekend. of course he was happy, but...i know spicing up your sex life is important when your married but he wanted me to strip for him (dollar bills and everything). if i would be in a normal state i probably would have thought it was fun. but the last time we had sex, all i could envision was my 'abuser' on top. i HATED IT!!!!!!!!!!
so i was scared and the stripping just made me feel so low and worthless. i feld like a whore.i don't think i could feel any more emotionally worthless. i hated the sex, i didn't picture anything but i didn't like it. i never had the 'O'. and about 1/2 hour after i got really sore on the inside. i'm sure it's psychosomatic but i just curled up and cried.
now, hopefully this is enought to hold him off for a while.
please know that i DO love my hubby and normally he's a sensitive man, but that last couple times he get's a little rough and yes i've even told him that.
any advice to hold him off till i get through this stuff in sessions?
b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:531367
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