Posted by sunny10 on June 16, 2005, at 7:43:49
In reply to Hi Sunny, I'm sorry I haven't been any help lately, posted by Susan47 on June 15, 2005, at 22:24:02
Tamara does have a point about the police...maybe they do take these things as evidence. I thought they just took pictures...wish I HAD been drunk...
As I said to Damos, the worst part of all of this is not being able to tell anymore (with a lot of deductive reasoning) what I am inferring and what is actually real.
That is the worst part about what's happened over the past six months.
To not know how to react; thus being forced to do nothing while things continue to happen TO me. I am no longer living my life. I am trapped on the sidelines, watching myself go through the motions. I got "saved" from escaping this feeling, but the feeling has not gone away. And I am not exactly getting more sane by the day!! More crazy is more like it. It's strange; while I was in the hospital, I was glad that I was "saved"- happy about it, even. Now that I'm out, most of the time I wish I had suceeded.
I'm sorry to hear that you are not doing well either, my love. Mostly I didn't want to contact you while I was down because I didn't want to upset that happy wagon (or at least sane one) you were driving for a while there.
I know that I have missed a lot on the boards. I simply don't have the energy to read through them all.
Feel free to babblemail me if you want to let me know what's been going on with you- but a warning, I can't get to it until tomorrow night.
Dratted "outside email blocker" at work... And I have plans to go out to a movie tonight. I'm going to ask for the key to my Fitness Center back from my SO. I need the exercise (and something to do, mainly... it is hard to sit around hating yourself alone every night).
mmmmmmwwwwwaaaahhhh,
sunny10
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