Posted by sunny10 on June 15, 2005, at 13:26:54
In reply to Re: When you suffer from depression, how do you know » sunny10, posted by TamaraJ on June 15, 2005, at 13:11:28
thank you for your input.
I am on my second week of a new Wellbutrin scrip, and this paranoia remains. Of course, the Risperdal that she also put me on can cause "restlessness", so I wonder if that contributes to the state of agitation I am in right now. The paranoia has been around for a while, and the Risp is supposed to control racing thoughts (that's why she put me on it in the first place), but I am extremely agitated- my thoughts aren't racing, but when I try to focus on anything, all this stuff comes up to my consciousness again, unbidden.
I feel belittled, betrayed, and deceived by more than two individuals in my life right now and I don't know whether to believe those feelings or not. Because I OD'd two weeks ago, all of those feelings may be valid. They may also NOT be valid. And when I ask these people whether they are doing XYZ, they say "no", but I'm not sure whether I can trust them to tell me the truth right now. I'm not sure if they would tell the truth if they thought the truth would hurt my feelings at the moment.
My hands are tied, because I either pursue the questioning (and basically call them liars, at a risk of alienating them if I am merely paranoid), or sit here quietly going insane because I don't know what to believe.
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